I have no clue how to start this post today. Y'all, my mind has been all over the place. I know that I try to document everything that I can. This is something I want to remember looking back, but it's just crazy hard to share. I won't go too deep but I will give you the gist of things that's been going on.
The past two weeks or so have been a freakin' roller coaster! I haven't been very into blogland because all my thoughts and energy have been exhausted by what has taken place. Let me explain. My hubby has been working in Kansas since early December. We spent our Christmas out there. We also knew that he would be out there for a long undetermined amount of time. We are used to him working out of town 3 to 4 weeks at a time, but usually he is close enough that we can drive to see him on the weekends.
Kansas isn't that convenient to South Carolina at all. It started effecting me emotionally. I was sad not to be able to see my hubby, but not only did it effect me, Zane was showing signs too. (poor baby) The hubs then decided that he would fly home in the middle of January one weekend and visit! We were SO happy!
Then he flew back to Kansas after two days. Saying goodbye sucked. We knew it would be a while before we saw each other again. We talked on the phone, sent each other mail, and tried to video chat. It isn't the same as seeing each other in person. If you have ever tried a long distance relationship, you know it's hard work. We survived and I'm glad that our relationship is strong enough. Time went by and he was told it's possible he would be working there for even longer than expected. He was okay with this as long as he could have his family. So we had made a BIG decision that we were going to move out there. To Kansas. Like pack up our whole life and move west.
I was anxious, but not in an excited way. I mean, don't get me wrong, I was happy about the journey upon us and that we'd see so much and have new experiences out there. I was also extremely happy that our family of 3 will be together again! I put in my two weeks notice at work and was beginning to pack and plan this huge move. I was overwhelmed with emotions about packing our stuff, from making a timeline so that everything fell into place, doing this packing, moving, & organizing all by myself. I felt like a control freak, that's one thing that I am not! I was planning everything to a tee. I had it all together in two days and my thoughts and emotions were coming together and I was starting to see the light at the end of this dark tunnel.
The next day I get a call from the Hubs. Everything I had planned out and stressed over was coming to a screeching halt. I had a sense of relief come through my body but sadness came too. We were not moving. Things didn't work out like he was told they would. Another sense of excitement ran through my veins as he told me he would be coming home soon! I was ecstatic at that moment. I would soon have my partner back. Someone to fill the emptiness in my heart where he once was. I didn't realize until that day how much I really missed my husband. I was glad that he was coming home to be with us again. He was on his way home to SC the next day! I was tickled and so was Zane! We are so happy that this ended up working out the way it did. It was meant to be for us to stay home!